Hello everyone. How's everyone doing?
I'm doing well. It's been a good summer. I know that I email some of you about the situation I had with a friend. But I'm doing really well.

What I've learned is that when you come to someone's aid, no matter what the outcome; the bottom line is that you weren't selfish. I did something for somebody and went out of my way for them and it didn't turn out great. But I know that whatever the situation they have. I have pray for them and break away from them. I brokedown a few times until I realize that I'm not selfish. I wanted to help someone in need and hope for the good to come out but it didn't. All I can do for them is to hope for the best.

I took a trip to San Antonio, ( a town in South Texas, where the alamo is located) with a group to visit other universities. It wasn't really that great because the group was more into themselves rather than talking to me. From that I learned that it's better to be not say anything to anybody. Too many people are stuck up nowadays. God knows why.

But things got better, thanks to people at the Orientation who made me feel that way. Welcomed and true camaderie with the campus. Something that I was missing for 3 and a half years at my college.

Since then things have been looking up for me. I just turned 22 yesterday the 28th of July and now getting everything ready to go to the University of North Texas.

At the beginning of the year, I had doubts about my dreams but someone told me that I'm closer than I think to it. And they were right. My card debt is gone and I have more money to buy my art supplies and make art and buy a camera to take pictures of myself and other things around me.

I think there are times in life that we have to appreciate the good things and not think of the bad. Yeah bad things have to happen but we have to have hope because if you don't then life worth be worth living.

Love you guys

I'm caught in the symmetry of your mind
But i'm not happier than you
Did I really see you or was it a dream?
Dreaming that it was seamless, not a trace of wrong
Wrong words that we have spoken
Little did we know.
No bigotry, No trears shed
Oh if only you'd try to be polite
thinking you were right
only to find that you're unkind
But ironically you will always be belle of the ball at least to me
i'm caught in the symmetry of your mind
But I'm not happier than you
But my words are frail not audible
They do not even convince me
Perhaps they are untrue
Truly with you the worst is always true
I gave you all the benefits of all the doubts
I had never hoped to be as benign as me
Funny how you always get through
But ironically you will always be belle of the ball at least to me

I hope you guys are doing well, especially you Nizzie!. Well, alot of things happened since then; my godson came today, I passed my first exam in US History. Then some unexpected things came up, I learnt that I won't be going to the university of my choice due the economic crisis that my country is suffering at the moment so I'll be going to one close by, and then maybe if things get better I could go still go down there. We'll see how that goes.

Right now, it's Spring Break for me so I have a whole week off, no work, just play and Sangria! lol.

Then to the downside of things, British actress Natasha Richardson has passed away due to head trauma, I was hoping that she'd pull through. She was an gifted actress. We'll miss you dear.

This year will be the one year anniversery of Heath Ledger's death, but something good came out of it, he won Best Supporting Actor at the Oscars!!. I knew that from the get-go. And then Slumdog Millionaire won. I'm very happy.

Sometimes we expect miracles in life to happen and sometimes they happen and sometimes they don't because it's all for the best and the best things come along for us. Things get better for the future. It might be bad now but it will be a major change in our lives.

I know that I've said that I had days that I wanted to give up but I keep the spirited high, thanks to Conversecrazy and others, you know who you are.

I becoming to realize my dream of going to uni in the fall and getting my Bachelor's in Fine Art and Film Production is coming true. I already got ideas swirling in my head dying to be put down on paper, and it will be. So stay in touch!

I love you guys!!!!

I got this from
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~vihmakivi
~kuroRAN
~Conversecrazy
~damnednix
~nininunino
~kangfemy
~Mart-elle
~superfluidmessdreams

1) I never been outside of the US. I have been to New Mexico, Arizona, and California to see my aunt one last time. This was back 8 years ago.
2) I have one sibling, an older brother who's now 28
3)As most people I've met know that I'm studying to be a filmmaker and visual artist.
4)I'm an struggling artist in a sense of being poor and not having a camera.
5) My muses served as my inspiration angels in the art world.
6) I'm pretty diverse in music and films, whatever I hear or see something bad I switch off.
7) I have a job but currently looking for a second one.
8) I'm losing weight, the only thing I'm looking is how to keep it off.

I want to start off by saying thank you to those who responded to my last journal or those who thought about me. I love you dearily and do the same for you.

School has started back on Tuesday but I did'nt go to class because I wanted to watch the Inaugaration of Obama. I'm really happy that change is happening, with the world's patience; things will get better.

Speaking of underdogs, Heath Ledger won the best supporting actor for The Dark Knight. I knew from the get go that he would win and that he's proud of it. Sometimes it takes a few years to get life changing role that will not only earn you an award for your performance but also make you a legend in the future for others to look up to.

James is in South America at the moment, and speaking of artwork. I will put up some this year. I will buy a camera and get a sub so I be ahead whenever I have something new. It's time to get my work out there not only for the world to see but for him to see, so I can take it further. I'm not for the commerical success, I'm for the emotional success.

I have had some discouragements but I continue to think positive. Like vihi said "Think about something else for a while." And I totally agree. I'm happy to say that I've payed off one of my debts! I'm bloody happy. I have another one and it will be done in March.
So I'm happy.

I'm going to my local museum next weekend to see "Waltz with Bashir" and the second weekend after that, "Let the Right One In" The previews are below

These two films are the reason I want to be filmmaker.

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